thinking for a while..

I knew these two guys. They had a many similiarity in terms of their characteristics. What I knew is this guy named n is a counselor n this another guy named z is a teacher. I remembered when I was a kid, my ambition is to be a teacher or counselor. But, my path was change cz I'm in banking course right now. Hmm. 1 more thing, these two guys is a guy I've ever had crush with so long before. Hmm. Now, I'm on my way going to eat bakso with ayna grey, her bf izzy. We are from kingfisher took our stuff off. Kbye

PERTH :(

i got an offer from syabil's parents. ive been invited to go to perth with them. 1 family for holiday. OH MY GOD! i really wanna go to oversea. i want it sooo badly! i so mad with it till i can imagine that i wear gloves,jackets, skarf n things from 'going places' shop. bestnyaaa!! i know i can get a permission from my parents. but im no sure whether i can get it from my baby afai. :(( "by,i mau pg perth. i jarang dpt offer ne. biarpun ada jantan lain,i bkn mau gatal dgn diorg. i mau bercuti d tmpt tu. blm tentu i dpt pergi smpai mati' :(((( ive planned everything to go there. including collecting money so that i can go there........ aku betul2 mau pg australia. bercuti dgn pakaian2 tebal dan cantik! aku mau rasaaaaa :( lain sungguh hati ni! uncle, i thing its better if u dont tell me anything about perth! :( i want!!

by the time she being emotional.

now, im happy. so its hard for me to get the insipration on quoting :P
all about afai :
the beginning of relationship is actually when he began to risk his life for u or make any sacrifices.
he might hide the actual feelings,but i can read his feeling through his action.
guys tend to hide what they feel,but when the time come to let it out about the feelings,it bcome somthing sweet until u cant even forget it. i will study hard about him! loveeeeeee afai so muchess!

my heart feelin like to write something..

this time, im in my room. just fnish tidy my room in hostel. hmm. i dnt know but i feel like to write something here. the story goes like this... i get to know this 1 man in the bed waterfront. while sittin and looking around for a guys to "wiper" my eyes. well,its my habit if im going to club. then,this 1 man caught my eye on him cz he is nice looking. this is what i mumbling in my heart while looking at him. aftr about 1 hour,i smile at him n he respond it! gsh! he is cute! aftr that,his fren approach me and said his fren wanna get to know me. well,sayin hye hye & hye. he asked for my number. i said "nnty i bg in paper" cz i dnt know. that time i was so arrogant! i dnt wanna look cheap in front of this guy. i dnt want the ppl around me sees me givin my number to him. till 1 time,my fucking sister get drunk! & went out from the bed. aftr 5 mins,i was looking for her! this bunch of guys went out to go home,saw me walk around cz i was looking for our car cz i know my sis went to the car. aftr i found her and everything was settled, all of us chi chatting & mget to know each other. all of them are CID (criminal investigation division)!! bukit aman head police station of malaysia! goshhhhhh! i like it sooo much! that guys which i knew is hafiz is soo cute! he has dimple and a very nice teeth & smile! haha. after all,i guess he is okayyy. but aftr few weeks keep in touch with him,he confess that he fall for me & wants o avoid that. how chick he is! memang sial la. but i try so hard to hide what i feel that time and being okay for everything he said & i suggest to less cntact with him. then,starting today we didnt cntact till this friday cz our promises is we will only cntact on friday & once a week. hmmmmmmmm. i know this will be a temporary feeling & i love my only baby boii afaizwan afandi. evendo he is unemployed but he is different from other guys. im thankfull. :) my heart still belong to him & nobody else.

hee. mood mau merepek!

all in malay! malas aku speaking. tunggang terbalik jugk! by the wayy. tgk2 profile junizahh. sheril atikah childs ika yahiya. semua ada baby! bestt! bgmbr sama laki diorg lg. eee. suka btul baaaa tgk semuaa tuuu. ada baby diorg. happy ne tgk. tp nama anak durg ada yg sama. hehe. doesnt matter la yg pnting. aku mau nama anak aku DINDA,BUNGA,CINTA,KASIH buli ka? single name n ada tmbhan tp nnty jak pkir klau sudah ada *morning sickness. :PPPP hahaha. gete mau kawin!! bukan paaaaaa. semua org pun mau kwin. tp nnty2 laa lepas ada krja n kreta. for sure,rmah,laki aku beli! :P kununn. bila la tuu. calon?????? MACAMMMMM ada. :P ntah la. kerja ALLAH. mau taubat luk. byk sdh dosa di buat neh :'( byeeee.
p/s : dia jugak aku rindu kann

love and hate.

i dont know how to describe what exactly i feel right now. but im very sure that only my heart n mind can discover whats on it. i just love.. and hate someone right now. it all happen in 1 time. im hoping for a hope and also faith between us. even though i belong to someone. but it seem like theres a still have another part for him. he is just nobody who i met long time before. im catting with him. while chit chat -ing i can feel that i missed him soo much. i dnt know why. please YA ALLAH,aku rindu dia saat bersamanya. aku rindu dia saat aku ingat dia. kuasa apakah itu? aku mahu pedoman. aku mahu petunjuk. gosh! what makes me turn to be this way? everything goes wrong since i met him last time. him. all i can do is sighhs.

emotional night.

13sept11. i felt really sad tonight. i miss my family in kb. esp my grandma. the person i miss so much is my dad. i think he is not really care about us anymore. i miss the happiness. i miss everything about my family. oh my! im crying. i never wanted to have this kind of family. this year's eid mubarak, we have to sacrifice our time to my family side my mom and my dad. it is unfair. i envy looking at the picture of my dad's family in the album of khas group in fb. i miss them and i fel that i really hate my stepmum! shes the reason why my dad didnt care about us anymore. i hate her! i swear!!!!! dont care how much she try to te nice to us,she still bad in my eyes! i hate her! she take my dad away from us! weel. this is life which u have to choose! yes. LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHOOSE. whatever happens,u must choose 1 things among two. i hope with this kind of situation i will become more matured and i can prepare well for my family in the future. YA ALLAH,please help me and show me the path to live this life following the truth way of islamic life. ;'( all tonight is about family. i missed them so much.