will this last forever?

next episode..........

SCHOOL!! ;)

we are at the end of july's semester. erm.. im not feeling really good. bcz i will miss the moment we go to class n busy days! hohohoh. nevermind. sem break is for us to relax our mind aftr 4 months studied. the story of mine is,i got a quite good oga for my subject eco n mkt. at least more than half oga rite? so,i satisfied. but i'l working realy2 hard to archieve a good pointer. that i promise. eventhough i had a heavy problem in relationship,it doesn't mean that im weak! the weakness is just temporary! bcz im going to settle in aftr i finishd my final exam. hurm...

SOMEONE :) :) :)

QUITE GOOD. ERM.. ALMOST PERFECT ABOUT THE PACKAGE. EDUCATED! VERY GOOD LOOK! ONLY ME KNOW WHO'S THAT PEOPLE. HEHE. I USED TO CHECKED INTO HIS PROFILE EVERYTIME I ON9. THE IMPORTANT THING IS... HE ADD ME AS HIS FREN. I DONO WHERE DID HE SAW ME. ITS MIRACLE! :) HE MAKES ME SMILE. ESP WHEN I SEE HIS PROFILE N PICTURES!!! ERM..... I NEVER WANT THIS FEELINGS BUT IT COMES NATURALLY....

im going to write all my stories soon...

its been a long time....

CONT..

i didnt update my blog. bcz i was so busy managing my life. busy with assignments,quizzes,tests n preparation for hari raya.. im talking about the whole story about my life while i didnt write this blog. as what had been mentioned by mdm.A,writing this blog is for our assignment marks with 10%. heh. to be continued,we do lots of preparation for hari raya.. such as,painting my house,re-design our living room n many more. ohh! shopping. heh. i get about more than 5hundreds for hari raya. this is the specialize if u have 2 parents. i get money from them to shop for hari raya. the total of the money is including "duit raya" that i get from all of my family members. i was so happy for how much money that i get from them(i think something wrong with my grammar here) heh. let it be,ppl made mistakes. however,i spent half of it to buy things. including my mumy's present for her birthday last 15sept. n the rest of my money,i used to bought stuff for me n him. heels,handbags n many more (him,i bought trunk n sandal). anyway,i never forget to open a new acc to make saving. so,now i have an acc in maybank. heh. im happy for it.

(IN THE MIDDLE OF SEPT- ABOUT MY LOVE STORY)

its about the sux-NESS of him. i dnt hv any idea what making him changed to be sooooooooooooooooooooooooo sucks!! he treat me like a shit! oh god. i can say now,i still stick to him just bcz of the feeling! the feeling that never faded! i duno why. i kept it permanently. so that,it will never faded away. but,how about him? why do he act like that? he take everything just like that. i mean,every problem that we had he didnt afford to settle it. he likes to ignore it rather than to settle it quickly. 1 more thing,sometimes i felt that he is immature in some ways. yeah! i know he didnt have an enough experience about love. so,i tried very hard to understand his attitudes. UNTIL i feel that i cant just accept it before i think that i shud change him. i shud help him. if not, we cant go anywhere with this situation in our relationship. oh god! i hope miracles cud happen! i cant stand anymore! but,i try! WILL TRY! until the faith said that we cannot go through this relationship anymore.

OVERALL,im so into him. him alone n no one else.

missing to type writing..

its been a long time i didnt write to this. heh. but,when im writing the post,my mind become blank. by the way,while im writing this im checking into the twilight eclipse web site. omigosh! i really love the movie. i cant describe how much i love it! edward cullen,bella n jacobs. n the whole stories. its a romantic action movie! i love it. yes,i do!

today's story...

first class today was so sucks bcz at the time i arrived in fast track i forgot where my costing class wich its da day of 2nd quiz class that i have to attend for. it was almost 30 minute i round the fast track n searching for my class with a friend name,zul kecikk. hehe. until i almost give up. so i decided to sat at bustop n calm myself while thinking about how am i going to find my class. so,i get an idea that i have to go to lecturers room n mis.habibs room. so,i found it finally. thnk god i didnt miss it! bel class , Mdm A was mad at us. this was a first time she mad at us. i think so. bcz of our idea in speaking practice was not really good. we already do our best in that. but,she wants more. i mean,she want something that can impress her! critical thinking! yeaaa,we are in learning process. it takes time for us to do what she wants. we are just in level two. come on! but,i try to do better than before that i can promise. =)

about this weekend,im going to have a very good weekend with my family n mi amorr.

i can't wait for it. just see how it goes... bye readers.

indiependent~

i just updated my post just now. "ceweq is dare to stand alone". what i mean is i just realise that i can be alone and i have friends anywhere i go. today's evening,i went to archery training,to buy food for my dinner wich i didnt accompany by any of my friends. a friend(ershad) just tell me that he heard someone was talking about me that i always alone. even while i eating in cafe btc or go to class. i always be alone. to be frank,im feeling good to heard that. at least i know i dont really depends to my friends. maybe this is the way to the maturity. love this part.! im not really interested on talking about friendship now. for me,friend is just a friend. close friend. but,i will never have a bbf anymore. no more after my high school bbf. i trauma bcz of my past stories about friends. huhu. k,stop talking about it k.

pressure of love.

the utmost important thing i wanna talk now is about him. he screwed my day everyday. im so fuckin tired with all of this. he dont understand what i want in our relationship. i just need what i supposed to get from a "BOYFIREND" yeah,this is me when im stress. i talk a lot. i guess nobody will read this. so,i decide to write this shit just to release what in my heart. actually,i didnt write all i felt. just few. just what i said,i dont exposed myself to much. i dont like it to be in this way. what i mean is tend to write smthing like this rather than to find a solution to solve my stupid problem. in my age now,this supposed to a small matter to me. but,i learn to have a relationship with a guy since in high school wich i do have a lots of bf. so that i learn more about the behaviour of a human name,guys!! yeah,there a too many types of them. virgin killer. playboy. nerdy. good boy. pretender n etc! when it comes to the moment i know 'this' guy. he is different. i can say my new love,new problem n new knowledge! the thing is he dont even know how to make me satisfy. he didnt play his role to the fully. i was thinking about to teach him what to do. but,i refuse bcz i think wisely n i realise that i dnt have to tell him what he supposed to do. at least not all the time 'bahh'! bkin pns this. he really takes something easy. im a girl,not yet a women. so,im in process on learning about something that is.... erm. i dont know how to descibe his feeling. just wat i know,i feel different with this man. yeah! i heart him. i miss the moment we spending time together. but hes not in my place now. he is far away from me wich means i cant touch him. perhaps,cuddle him. i hope there will be a miracle that he read all of this and everything is going to be fine. n he change!! yeah! go,my love!!~ hehe

woke up @ 9am! kunun wanna go to class. sekalinya the time table for costing class change already. yeww! i still feel sleepy u know. geram la with this situation. wanna sleep again............

i miss my "anak kucing" so much. ee. i cant describe how much it is.

im thinking about i will only write about general thing here. but,i'l write a little bit about wat i feel also. nothing interesting happened today. but my day was very rushing. after my microeconomics class,me and syasha went to 1b. all is just bcz i wanna buy dg cmpus simpack. someone ask me. heh. im sure u'l guess the right person. perhaps. hahaha. but i reach in uitm without it bcz the simpack was out of stock! ee! i hate this part when i really hope for something but i dint get it as i wish. but i'l find it d other day. huhu. im writing this at 12.33am. bcz mdm A's face was just crossed in my mind so i think,its better for me to practise my writing evendo this is not a suitable time for me to do my practise. hehe. by the way,im waiting for what happen tomorrow bcz we cannot predict what will happen in future. it might be a big suprise for everyone. i cant wait for the next challenge. oww!~ its gettin late already,i think i have to go to my special bed on the floor. haha. in uly's room. nite my bloggie. (im mumbling) sorrehh my readers.

my first post~~~
well,as im writing this now. i just finished doing my quiz in subject cost accounting. hehe. i think its easy for me. hehe. cuz i had do my revision last minute!! hehe. argh! i have class in the afternoon again.......... which is the class is one of my favourite class. heh. i haven't done my work. grammar section. hehehe. nevermind. mdm A will be ok with that. im sure. hahaah. the reason why her name i give red front bc0z she likes to use red lipstic. its makin her look sexy! wohahaha. Mdm,sorry yah!~ erm.... the end of today. nothing to talk about anymore.