pressure of love.

the utmost important thing i wanna talk now is about him. he screwed my day everyday. im so fuckin tired with all of this. he dont understand what i want in our relationship. i just need what i supposed to get from a "BOYFIREND" yeah,this is me when im stress. i talk a lot. i guess nobody will read this. so,i decide to write this shit just to release what in my heart. actually,i didnt write all i felt. just few. just what i said,i dont exposed myself to much. i dont like it to be in this way. what i mean is tend to write smthing like this rather than to find a solution to solve my stupid problem. in my age now,this supposed to a small matter to me. but,i learn to have a relationship with a guy since in high school wich i do have a lots of bf. so that i learn more about the behaviour of a human name,guys!! yeah,there a too many types of them. virgin killer. playboy. nerdy. good boy. pretender n etc! when it comes to the moment i know 'this' guy. he is different. i can say my new love,new problem n new knowledge! the thing is he dont even know how to make me satisfy. he didnt play his role to the fully. i was thinking about to teach him what to do. but,i refuse bcz i think wisely n i realise that i dnt have to tell him what he supposed to do. at least not all the time 'bahh'! bkin pns this. he really takes something easy. im a girl,not yet a women. so,im in process on learning about something that is.... erm. i dont know how to descibe his feeling. just wat i know,i feel different with this man. yeah! i heart him. i miss the moment we spending time together. but hes not in my place now. he is far away from me wich means i cant touch him. perhaps,cuddle him. i hope there will be a miracle that he read all of this and everything is going to be fine. n he change!! yeah! go,my love!!~ hehe