indiependent~

i just updated my post just now. "ceweq is dare to stand alone". what i mean is i just realise that i can be alone and i have friends anywhere i go. today's evening,i went to archery training,to buy food for my dinner wich i didnt accompany by any of my friends. a friend(ershad) just tell me that he heard someone was talking about me that i always alone. even while i eating in cafe btc or go to class. i always be alone. to be frank,im feeling good to heard that. at least i know i dont really depends to my friends. maybe this is the way to the maturity. love this part.! im not really interested on talking about friendship now. for me,friend is just a friend. close friend. but,i will never have a bbf anymore. no more after my high school bbf. i trauma bcz of my past stories about friends. huhu. k,stop talking about it k.

pressure of love.

the utmost important thing i wanna talk now is about him. he screwed my day everyday. im so fuckin tired with all of this. he dont understand what i want in our relationship. i just need what i supposed to get from a "BOYFIREND" yeah,this is me when im stress. i talk a lot. i guess nobody will read this. so,i decide to write this shit just to release what in my heart. actually,i didnt write all i felt. just few. just what i said,i dont exposed myself to much. i dont like it to be in this way. what i mean is tend to write smthing like this rather than to find a solution to solve my stupid problem. in my age now,this supposed to a small matter to me. but,i learn to have a relationship with a guy since in high school wich i do have a lots of bf. so that i learn more about the behaviour of a human name,guys!! yeah,there a too many types of them. virgin killer. playboy. nerdy. good boy. pretender n etc! when it comes to the moment i know 'this' guy. he is different. i can say my new love,new problem n new knowledge! the thing is he dont even know how to make me satisfy. he didnt play his role to the fully. i was thinking about to teach him what to do. but,i refuse bcz i think wisely n i realise that i dnt have to tell him what he supposed to do. at least not all the time 'bahh'! bkin pns this. he really takes something easy. im a girl,not yet a women. so,im in process on learning about something that is.... erm. i dont know how to descibe his feeling. just wat i know,i feel different with this man. yeah! i heart him. i miss the moment we spending time together. but hes not in my place now. he is far away from me wich means i cant touch him. perhaps,cuddle him. i hope there will be a miracle that he read all of this and everything is going to be fine. n he change!! yeah! go,my love!!~ hehe

woke up @ 9am! kunun wanna go to class. sekalinya the time table for costing class change already. yeww! i still feel sleepy u know. geram la with this situation. wanna sleep again............

i miss my "anak kucing" so much. ee. i cant describe how much it is.

im thinking about i will only write about general thing here. but,i'l write a little bit about wat i feel also. nothing interesting happened today. but my day was very rushing. after my microeconomics class,me and syasha went to 1b. all is just bcz i wanna buy dg cmpus simpack. someone ask me. heh. im sure u'l guess the right person. perhaps. hahaha. but i reach in uitm without it bcz the simpack was out of stock! ee! i hate this part when i really hope for something but i dint get it as i wish. but i'l find it d other day. huhu. im writing this at 12.33am. bcz mdm A's face was just crossed in my mind so i think,its better for me to practise my writing evendo this is not a suitable time for me to do my practise. hehe. by the way,im waiting for what happen tomorrow bcz we cannot predict what will happen in future. it might be a big suprise for everyone. i cant wait for the next challenge. oww!~ its gettin late already,i think i have to go to my special bed on the floor. haha. in uly's room. nite my bloggie. (im mumbling) sorrehh my readers.

my first post~~~
well,as im writing this now. i just finished doing my quiz in subject cost accounting. hehe. i think its easy for me. hehe. cuz i had do my revision last minute!! hehe. argh! i have class in the afternoon again.......... which is the class is one of my favourite class. heh. i haven't done my work. grammar section. hehehe. nevermind. mdm A will be ok with that. im sure. hahaah. the reason why her name i give red front bc0z she likes to use red lipstic. its makin her look sexy! wohahaha. Mdm,sorry yah!~ erm.... the end of today. nothing to talk about anymore.