complicated :(

bad and sad thing happen which is sometimes i dont know what to do. what to say and i have to do nothing. triangle love. this is not the first time in my life. but this is first time when ive reached the age that i have to responsible for everything i did. bcz it include ppls feeling. i didnt meant to hurt anyone. i know. ive made a mistakes. ive played with someones feelings without thinking about what gonna be happen in the future. i took a risk to be with z without think that maybe i will fall for afai. this is shit i swear! but faith planned it for me. i love afai so much but it seems like im not willing to lose z. i dnt know. i want sign of my path. i really want it. i need something,maybe an advise to wake me up that i did something wrong here and i'l meet the solution. im so confuse. im sooooo confuse. i dnt know what to doo. i need ALLAH :((